Thursday, September 6, 2012

I get knocked down (but I get up again?)

Why is it every time I think I'm getting a handle on things something comes along to knock me down again? I keep getting knocked down, I keep trying to get up again but it is getting harder and harder to get back up. I feel as though my emotional responses are just shutting down again and I'm going into "robot mode" trying to deal with life.

Due to a cascade of events today I found out our income this month is about half of normal. This was a bit of a shock. (How's that for the understatement of the year?)  We had made a strategy for September to try to simplify and save some money. Now instead of "let's implement these ideas so we can save money" it has now become "let's implement these ideas because having gas to get to work and feeding the kids seems like a good idea".

So as of today I will stepping up the September strategy. Instead of consolidating shopping to one or two days a week we will be avoiding stores as many days as possible, buying only what is absolutely essential that I can't make myself. 
I will be revamping the menu plan so we do not have to buy anything for our meals other than fresh fruit and vegetables and milk. I have a fair amount of baking supplies so hopefully they will last. We will be walking everywhere possible to save on gas. The priority has to be having enough gas for the drive to and from work.  I'll continue to hang out the laundry, though that isn't really saving money in the short term. I'm a little overwhelmed but I know this is doable.

I've been pretty zen about this. Initially I almost fell apart but quickly gathered myself together again and started planning instead.  With one exception, I'm feeling okay with taking up the challenge to live on such a reduced budget for the rest of the month.  Our get away is cancelled, which is sad. We were going to go to Algonquin and spend the weekend hiking. Honestly this is upsetting me the most. We really needed to get away and reconnect. We haven't had time alone at all since we reconciled, we haven't had time together to process everything that has happened this summer. I guess this is another challenge we need to take to connect in the craziness of life. I think I should start brainstorming free date ideas.  
** My fabulous friend Jenn, after reading this post, sent me a couple links to cheap date ideas. Here they are!

20 Pocket-Change Date Night Ideas

Free As Can Bee: Creative and FREE Date Night Ideas

Now if only I could get that Chumbawumba song out of my head while I pick myself up again.


  1. Homemade dessert by the water...oh and some baked goods (ha ha, I know my wit is endless). But seriously, that can be a really nice way to reconnect.

  2. That is a wonderful idea Rachel. Thank you.